Tuesday, September 7, 2021

My memories from Vrindavan and Mathura

 Someone somewhere gave me a nice idea to write something about someplace which I visited sometime long ago.

It happens, when you try to remember past gone years while staying indoors in middle of a long pandemic, vocabulary shortens, lot of some things are added in place of actual words. 

I was referring to Mathura and Vrindavan, I don't remember now, what all years I visited, but I do remember, I visited these mystic cities many times, every time, I saw something new and mystic. 

Two out of many spiritual cities in India, where most people visit as devotees, or as we call them believers, some come to seek for answers. Be it "The Beetles" or Steve Jobs or Mark Zuckerberg or any of those who want to find a key to success. There are always seekers, believers & non-believers. Seekers are the ones who interest me most. Seekers are the ones who are most confused and challenges everything what looks correct. 

Interestingly, why seekers come to these cities, which are meant for believers, may be because they think, its most relevant place to find answers from blind believers, if it seems illogical, you are not the only one. May be seekers are just watching patterns behavior in believers with an eagle's eye view. 

My early memories of Vrindavan are from teenage, when used to accompany my dad a couple of times. He is moderately religious, politically center left leaning person. I hope this explains a lot, as current time period of 2020s is a world full of right wingers. In India, it is also linked with religion some how. As all rights are becoming saffron lovers & nationalists off course.

My dad's motivation to visit Vrindavan were more of a : get away from daily routine & walk a half-marathon. And offcourse a pilgrimage to mystic god. I think adding all reasons together, makes a good sense to travel on weekends for a day trip. And what was my motivation, it was nothing but to see something new and interesting, which I never saw. After a couple of visits, I stopped accompanying my dad. He thought, I am not a bhakt (devotee) material, which I am not.

It was only after years, when I went there again and recollected my past memories, I realized that, it is an amazing place. It was when, I was not expecting anything new & interesting from my visit.

It was when, I just went to explore & tour. I began to understand and appreciate these cities.

Hinduism itself is a religion of mysticism, a blank canvas where you can paint colors. Many Hindu holy cities are having their own character, generally it is linked with the character of god, the city is associated with, for example, Varanasi belongs to artisans, poets & singers because of Shiva, the god of art & dance.

Mathura & Vridavan - belongs to a god as well, Yes, these cities belong to Krishna. And people living here have accepted this fact. It is about perception, everything starts from it, how you perceive is how you behave. If I live in Delhi or any other city, the city belongs to me and the people, I have a sense of ownership. But not at Vrindavan, here at Vrindavan, you think, you are living on rent. When this perception changes, it changes many things. So, it goes further, that everything in this city belong to Krishna in its entirety, even people, they are just subjects. And Krishna is the master.

So, don't you dare to move something from its place, as it doesn't belong to you or me. It is often seen that, if you are a guest, you behave well and you care more about everything you have gotten from your host. After all, you need to return everything before you leave. So I saw this kind of attitude in people. And yes, its completely different from other cities.

Have you ever, observed, the prasad from temples, it tastes very good, and even if its simple, it tastes well. I always wondered, why, coz its made with love? may be, or may be, its not meant for you to eat actually, its for gods, and when someone makes it with this feeling in mind, there is a sense of love, but also a sense of fear, and a sense of devotion. May be it is due to all these overwhelming emotions, the cook takes extra care and precautions. I never figured it out, probably will never be.

Back to Vrindavan, there is a peda wala (sweet balls, from milk solids), who is famous in Vrindavan, In fact there are many peda walas in Vrindavan, but one is famous, and as you can imagine, no one can take onus of something on himself, the success is wholly by the grace of Krishna, as the story goes, that, one day Krishna actually visited this shop in morning, in an avatar of a child. And asked peda from this shop owner, The shop owner gave his peda, and he was blessed by child Krishna that his poverty will go away. If you look more closer to this story, and more such stories, you will find that, people are actually living together with Krishna, He is eternal and take forms (avatars), make stories and influence people's life everyday. How mystic it sounds, it is more mystic then that. There is a garden in Vrindavan, it is said that, in this garden (Name: Nidhivan), Ras (dance of gods/goddesses) happens every night, that one must not stay here after evening. Else he/she may go out senses, or in other words may go crazy/ psychologically ill. If you dont trust me, watch this video from ABP news : 

Apart from that, there are visible differences off course, People are more relaxed, as it is common in most of  smaller towns and villages. Lot of temples, Lot of foreigners, many Europeans, mostly due to Iskcon. A small industry to cater needs of all these tourists. but for me, these very visible changes, are alike to most of hill stations in India. What was not visible was that, these tourists are mostly believers and seekers. Lot of curious people trying to find some thing, no one have found yet, A question that is answer to everything, or an answer for all questions.


Saturday, November 29, 2008

Sorry Squirrel, I Failed...

That day i was sitting idle and watching TV in my drawing room..when suddenly two small squirrels came shouting from our veranda towards drawing room. My sis asked me to shut the mirrored doors of drawing room, And not let them in. But i was confused what happened all of sudden to squirrels soo late in evening, about 7.00 pm, I never saw them out to play at this time of day.
I shut the doors anyhow and again sat myself on sofa.. But amazingly the two kid squirrels started knocking doors with their little hands scratching them asking me to open and let them in, I was seeing the drama now with more interest and sis also. they climbed on wooden panel on door somehow and hide themselves in the gap of door and pal mat, they were continuously crying.. I was thinking that they are fearing of something..may be a cat is there out at veranda so i opened door and checked out but found nothing there.. Seeing those little kids and smiling i returned back to room. As i sat, wat we saw is.. a squirrel is now coming from outside in hurry and climbed on door.. climbing close to her kids she.. grabbed one in her mouth.. like want to eat him..(but it is the only way for squirrels to hold their child) and she climbed down.. Adjacent to mirrored door we have our main entrance gate which opens to downstairs towards street.. she jumped towards our main gate ..Actually wanted to escape from the gap under main gate and floor.. but the gap was too less.. I was wondering and thinking what the hell is going on and why she is gone mad, Being so clever animal why she is trying to escape from a gap which is too small for her..
I again stood up and went out, Seeing me she didn't even moved a inch away.. But i was expecting it.. I opened the main door for her.. and step back.. she merrily jumped out on first stair case.. I faced back to room thinking that the drama ended.. but i paused when i saw my sis face and her mouth wide open, before her shout fed into my ear, i turned back and saw a cat, who was waiting just outside downstairs grabbed the mother squirrel And what was the most touching moment here was when the squirrel entered into cat's mouth , She tossed her kid towards me... Yes she did that She tossed him and the kid fell on my feet.. As if Saying to me that- I am going..Plz take care of my kids.. Like a Hindi movie scene , Yes may be.. But i freezed there for a moment like someone of my close has sacrificed her life.. i could feel the pain in kid's cry now and i suddenly understand their shouts they were making since past 15 mins.. i felt as if i am one from them.. 
As if i also lost my mother squirrel.
I quickly closed the door and picked one of the little squirrel, the other one still trying to jump on door hitting her head on it.. I didn't knew what he was thinking .. But after 1/2 hour also they both were sitting near our main gate only.. in hope of returning of their mother..
I arranged for a cup of milk..for them which was rejected by them.. eating bread was out of their reach as they didn't had teethes in their mouth.. My mom and sis tell my to leave them there.. "they will eat when they feel hungry , u come inside" And i had no option also so i left them there at veranda.
They also stopped crying after some time, And we thought they went out to their way.. BUT i was thinking that how could they, they cant even eat.. I searched here and there but nothing was there.So i also forget about them next day..
Two days after all this, mom got smell out in veranda and told me.. I shocked and ran out to check again. i know what's that smell is but didnt want to believe it.. i searched and chased that smell.. I opened the battery cover of my inverter and wat i saw was :( 
They were lying like they have mummied together. And I was feeling the same what they had felt in last two days before dieing, That hope they were carrying with them with innocence.. They were waiting there for there mother.. eaten nothing and died out of hunger ..They were in a hug position with each other.. 
We cleaned them.. but i felt soo sad that day.. As if i failed to maintain my promise to their mother, I failed to keep them alive ..All three of them died. :(
It is life... Life that we take soo casually.. coz we dont have to fight for living, we get everything easily.. Living such a easy life we have forgotten the importance of life.. i think i also had taken the things casually and forgot them after a day.. It can be seen like this.. That a mother forgets to feed her newly born children for a day.. And i did the same.. It was my responsibility to feed them..Nothing more to say ...
I will always remember that accident and sacrifice of the squirrel. And those two kids whom i failed to rescue .. I AM SORRY...

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Intro...

These pages reflects me..not the me who is visible to you...but the me who is not at all visible to myself also..its a way to discover myself ,to know better about me nd the journey which we r on. tats "life".
We all know,we r not the same as we look...for deep inside our souls the voices come out often, often we suppress them to pretend some else..but those voices talks to us when we r alone..The best frnd of ours is we ourself..I try to bring out those true voices nd write them,what they say.

I consider myself a boy who passed in life at a percentage of 59 in every exam..its a nice sillly thought but its serious for me..that what i hav achieved is always a slight more then half, half of what i get from life...its sometime fate,sometime my failures...nd sometime successes.. 'success' which i usually neglect...neglect to enjoy success also induces negativeness..May be what i write here is only negative but atleast it helps me to be positive atlast...tats wat is the aim of my blog..To take out me from myself,the different faces...inside